Saturday, January 30, 2010

Wanderings in the Dark


Wanderings in the Dark
by Lesli Jamison

Itinerant, my thoughts dwell,

Amidst nowhere and here.

Cognizant obscurity.

Unsettled, yet so clear.

These peripatetic wanderings

Of a mind left undisguised,

Undermined yet determined,

Seen through unseeing eyes.

A visage without description.

A hope without a cause.

Over zealous ambivalence

Met with an applause.

Vague light begins to filter

Penetrating concepts unknown.

Tangible or fantastical?

Accompanied or alone?

The flutter of an eye-lid,

The sensation of being aware.

I open my eyes, my dreams dissipate.

Awake I lie grasping that, which had no cares.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Simply Abundant

Simply Abundant
by Lesli Jamison
Yesterday, I spent a glorious day up in the mountains snow-shoeing. Nature has a way of lavishly and indulgently revealing herself to us leaving us to ponder the desire that her beauty evokes. How beautifully complex yet simply abundant the crunch of the snow, the gentle undulation of the wind in the trees, and the crisp air is to our overly chaotic lives. To think, that one hour out in God's creation can introduce such a refreshing air to our harried lives. Why on earth do we not reach for this ever so accessible catharsis more often?
This got me to thinking about how, in our lives, we allow simple pleasures to pass us by unnoticed and forgotten. Or, even worse, we recognize those pleasures yet still strive for materialistic fulfillment. When will we realize that the momentary joy of a shopping spree can and will never surpass that of the incandescent peace discovered when witnessing a sunset? Abundant simplicity at its finest.
How then, do we learn to recognize and put into practice those simply fine pleasures that leave us filled with joy? I decided that now is as good a time as ever to create my list of 'Simply Abundant Pleasures'. Along with my New Years Resolution accountability, I am choosing to use this blog post as a catalyst to continually look for the innocence and integrity in simplicity.

My 'Simply Abundant Pleasures':
~A fresh, hot cup of coffee first thing in the morning. There is something comforting, nostalgic, and hopeful about my morning coffee.
~A child dancing, singing or laughing. There is nothing so pure and untouched as that of a child partaking in song or laughter for it comes from a place not tainted by outside concerns but truly from the childs' heart.
~Music in all shapes and forms. For me, something spiritual takes place when I listen or play music. To feel the emotions put forth into a song and to bring it to life is such a beautiful pleasure for me.
~The written word. All forms thereof. I am a voracious reader either always looking to learn or looking to be inspired which thus leads to writing for me. Writing is one of the most therapeutic activities I take part in. It allows me to simply and expressively vocalize my heart and my mind.
~My camera. Capturing a moment, a visage, a breathtaking view.
~Being outdoors in any way, shape or form. The beauty of our Creators planet leaves me feeling awe-inspired and completely insignificant in His great significance.
~Working out (ha ha, right?) Working and challenging my body reminds me of what a miracle we, as humans are. Not that we've created it for ourselves, but that we were created so perfectly and meticulously. To feel my muscles strain, my heart beat....those are reminders of what a wonder we are and to never take advantage of the simplicity of ourselves.

This list is just the tip of the glacier. As I began to think about simple things that bring me joy, an insurmountable list began to form. What an incredible challenge to remind ourselves to be awed by life. I hope this challenges you to think of your own simple pleasures and to not live vicariously through stuff but through the little nothings that make our life a big something.

Simplicity. Life unadorned. Unprocessed. Undefiled.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Embracing to embark...

One of my New Years Resolutions (as stated in a previous blog post) was to do something I had only dreamed about. Today, I made my first step towards accomplishing that goal. I began the, what is sure to prove, long process of searching for a school that I hope to pursue a journalism degree at. This may seem a mundane and prosaic accomplishment to many but for me, it is the beginning of living my life for myself and not someone else. A newfound, slightly forced upon me dream that I am attempting to embrace to the fullest. Embrace and embark. Two words that encapsulate what I hope is the beginning of a new era in the life and times of Lesli Jamison.
The past six months have reintroduced my passion for the written word initially as a source of catharsis, but has unyieldingly produced a greater desire. A desire to use this passion not only for the expulsion of my own emotions, but perhaps for a greater good. What if, my passion became my power? The power to give a voice to the mute. The power to shine a light on the hidden. The power to save. Now, do not tempt yourself into believing that I am as egotistical as that sounded. I know that I myself have very little power. But what if, in conjunction with other people that share the same desires and talents, we, as a whole, can create pieces that not only speak to ourselves and where we come from, but speak to the world and where we all should be? That, is why I want to be a journalist. This I have embraced.
Now to embark. In order to be a journalist, it is a well known fact that education is a well advised stepping stone in that direction. One can not report upon facts that they have no knowledge of nor can they communicate to masses without an understanding of societal mindset. My current research has given me to believe that Northwestern is a top contender when endeavoring to become a journalist. Other schools are noted and mentioned often but Northwestern appears to have grasped a firm hold in all review departments. All of this I can accept gladly and look forward to eagerly. Then I remember, I would have to move. I would have to leave my beloved Colorado behind, move to a city I know nothing about (Chicago), am friendless in and start anew. Weirdly, I find that the most exciting and intriguing part of this adventure. In my 28 years of existence I have lived in two places. Northwest, Kansas (18 years) and Denver/Boulder, Colorado (10 years). As I near the third decade of my life, is it not fitting that I would choose to start it with an entirely different life? To each his own, of course. The 'my own' part of that cliche is what I am holding onto firmly. This is for me; my own. All this to say.....I sent for some applications and school info....oooooo....big step. *said with mock enthusiasm*. No, to many this is not even a gentle nudge in the journalist direction. But for me this WAS a big step for up until this time, I had not allowed myself to entertain the possibility of moving. I retract that. I may have entertained but never fully believed that it was a possibility. So yes, I did embark. If only slightly.
What has 2010 pressed upon peoples hearts? Who is embracing and embarking? Revisiting or renewing? Let us start this decade unrelenting in our passions and resolved in our ambitions.

Friday, January 8, 2010

New Year, New...?

I know I'm a bit behind the 'Resolution Momentum' that proceeds New Years Eve, however, I'm beginning this new year with a new focus and feel the need to commit these 'aspirations' to cosmic paper. Despite 2009 ending in a less than spectacular way, I am convinced and determined that 2010 will prove to be a year far surpassing its predecessor. I, Lesli Jamison, resolve to:

*Research and commit myself to a local non-profit/charity that I believe in, building a long-term relationship, and contributing whatever talents and assets I may have to furthering their cause.
*Come spring and summer, visit a farmers market at least once every week. Fresh, local produce here I come!
*Embrace single-hood and not take for granted what good things can come from being a 'one' and not a 'two'. (and not picking up after someone else, and eating straight out of the ice cream container, and .....)
*Fully take advantage of all outdoor activities Colorado has to offer. i.g. snowshoeing (doing next week for the first time), snowboarding (have done once and failed miserably but desire greatly to try again), more hiking (perhaps a 14er?), mountain biking (after I get insurance back.)....
*Completely embrace the vegetarian lifestyle and attempt it in a less-pasta-more-vegetables kind of way.
*Spend at least 30min. out of doors. Each day. No matter the weather. (Easy to do considering I have two dogs, live in an apartment and am thus outside in all increments of weather praying for the digestion process to speed up for them!) Vitamin D, I shall not lack.
*Less media and distractions. More writing, photographing, reading, cooking, creating....
*Step out on a limb. Do something that has only occurred in my dreams to do. Release myself to embrace the 'impossible' and obtain the 'indescribable'.

My desire is to keep an accountability record on here for myself. If I don't say it and no one here's me declare, well, I don't have to do it. So here I am, saying it. Declaring it. Doing it. Hopefully. Great aspirations 2010, I commit!